?Obsession? ??or?? ?Passion?

~~me and shir baby~~


~~ello~ i'm behind shir baby!:P~~


~~shir baby:"hmph~ hide behind mi.. *jumpz on dear's back~* yippie!~~


~~strong:pp~~

~~wah.. like that carry.. quite heavy:P~~


~~my christmas present.. no.. not mi.. its the jersey set:Pp love them!! thx dear!!~~


~~glamorous deardear!!!~~


~~metsuZ~AKUMA!!~~


~~oo.. so feminine~~

shhh.. this is a secret...

~~sultry dear... oh so sexy...:Pp~~


~~cute couple:p~~


~~all four of us~~


~~all four of us again~~

hee.. sorry if some or all of them have problem.. first time posting pics up.. so juz trial and err.. okie.. soo tiredz.. zzz... gotta wake at 6.45 somemore.. hee.. kiez la.. nitez all :) tata... enjoy! (if

heh.. this christmas is the first christmas i'vve spent with my baby shirshir.. its really really blissful and peaceful and lovely.. heh..
and full of surprises too~ hee.. dear planned alot of surprises for mi sia.. haha.. even tho eventually i knew abt the surprises.. but still.. it turned out to be very very surprising.. and they brought so much laughter.. so much.. love-struck feeling.. :Pp.. actually.. the light stick wordings "I LUV DEAR".. really brought tears to my eyes.. it was really really beautiful... hugx dear..
love the jersey set u gave mi... love the card u made.. and love the little letter u wrote.. =).. its nothing but from deep inside of ur heart.. tats wat i feel.. and i really mean it.. i love them so so much...
those romance sessions.. i will never forget.. and it made mi kept craving for more.. hehee.. details shall be kept between mi and u onli yah?:Pp
hehe.. dear.. glad u've really begin to like the skirt too.. u look really POSH.. GORGEOUS in it.. where got ah lian? wah liaoz.. i believe how pple look at oneself.. and decide if this gal is gorgeous.. or ahlian.. no matter if she's very young or wat.. its how she behave.. and how she speak and the way she portrays herself.. dun u agree? :)
hee...
then ar.. dear look good in the new way of dressing too :) hee.. and i'm more than glad that u like the jeans too.. keke.. quite exp. but its worth it :Pp haha.. yeah?:) dun worry.. wat u can't let ur mum see.. juz bring it on.. bring it to my home.. i'll clear a drawer or two for ur stuffs :).. like my mama say.. treat my home like urs.. kiez~ haha.. even tho she dint mention abt this.. :Pp
keke. .shhh... wats NS men best at? Do anything but DUN get caught :Pp
kekeke... muackz dear.. so lovely.. pray that we'll forever be so in love with each other..
ok.. forever sounds too dreamy.. lets get real.. i pray tat we'll be in this state or more until we're married.. then we were got married.. let us advance to another new stage of relationship ba..
there'll be LOTS of ups and downs.. now tat u've see.. all have started to surface.. and we're coping well eh?:) thank God for that.. let us be thankful to Him in everything.. :) hmm.. i'm glad i am able to visualise things tat;re surfacin.. and foresee quite afew underlying stuffs after some thinking.. and brainstorming.. thank God for the experience of relationship between mi and gwen last time.. it was really helpful to mi..
as for dear.. it'll be a rather alienic realm to u.. cos this is ur first long term relationship.. and i believe it's already quite new for u.. this is at least my second one.. so dear.. lay ur hand on mi.. put ur trust in mi.. have faith in Him.. and walk with mi.. this beautiful long road of life thats full of of ups and down slopes.. excitement and boredom.. everything in life.. and dear.. til so far.. i guess i'm still who u wan.. and from gwen's past relationship with mi.. i found that thru a long time.. abt 6 months or so.. one will start to noe if he or she is right or wrong for him or her.. and as time goes by.. it'll get worst or better.. so for now.. its better.. and i hope it'll always be this way... all the way.. :)
yeha? amen~:)
yep..
okie.. let mi update on christmas.. :)
hmm.. on christmas day.. mi and dear met up in the morning.. then dear make up here make up there.. then we make out.. oopz.. no i mean.. she after finish make up.. then decided on wat to wear le.. then she came to mi home.. so i can be dressed up by her. haha.. in the end.. i dint change anythin..:Pp but anyway.. it was full of fun la.. then rushed down to meet kim and jianhao and eugene n his gf agnes.. kim and jianhao can't recognise mi at first.. esp. kim.. hahaha.. cos i gelled my hair.. :Pp hee.. so funny.. hophophop.. :Pp hmmiez.. then we met up with eugene n gf.. and wanted to go eat sakae sushi... but dint eat cos no seats for 6.. so yah.. went to billy bombers instead.. guess all of us dint go to that kinda restaurants to eat during special occasions like christmas.. cos we're kinda little tiny bit shocked when we heard there's onli set meals and no a la carte.. hmmiez.. but anywya.. we were fine with it la.. mi and eugene ordered festive trio combo.. got clayfish.. ribs..chicken and potato salad.. shared it with our dears.. haha.. of course.. mi and eugene dint feel full at all.. but the ladies are all filled up:Pp
aha.. cool.. so anyway.. jianhao ordered fish and fries.. and kim ordered honey stung baked chicken i tink.. forgot wats the name le.. yah.. not bad la :) they were full la.. haha.. okie.. after taking some photos during and after the meals.. we went to coffee bean to sit down and chat and mi and dear drank hot chocolate.. eugene suggested to add ice :P hahaha.. i suggested tat i'll have cold chocolate drink thats smoking hot instead.. haha.. chicken rice with duck meat and forget abt the chicken meat.. or hao jian dun wan hao.. chao guo tiao dun wan guo tiao.. haha.a. ok ok.. lame enuff le..
after tat... it was dismissal.. really fun.. but my throat began to turn realyl bad.. but anyway.. mi and dear went shopshop abit.. then go suntec.. and eugene and his dear went for movie.. then jianhao went to send his fren's dad and mum to malaysia.. hee.. yep.. and tats the end of the westside meeting.. :Pp merry x mas to westside~~~
yeah.. after that.. its second part of the day! a la carte meals at rice bowl.. with irys and aldrick.. one of the best meal i ever had even tho the food taste as if i am eating in PA.. cos its all either hot or curry.. and there;s crackers and ikan bilis with peanuts.. the peanut sauce is damn nice with the egg cum toufu.. and stewed chicken in dark soya sauce is so homely.. haha.. others are not too bad too.. esp. the potatoes and satay:)... and dear.. oopz.. thats later.. and she's not one of the a la carte~ hahaha... yep.. had fun.. and i ate really alot sia.. need to cut down on this following week again.. :Pp
yep.. after dindin.. went to sky garden to take photo.. cos irys and ald wanna take neo prints but there wasn't any machine.. so we went to sky garden and it was really really nice up there.. haha.. double dating wasn't tat bad too.. once in a while la :) hee.. irys's funny.. and she and ald made it quite inspiring for mi and shir baby.. reminds mi tat period of time that the relationship has gone thru.. SHOULDN'T and SHAN'T be an excuse or even a reason for the relationship to be bland.. and for the guy to stop doing sweet sweet stuffs for the gal.. relationship of love.. should ALWAYS be sweet.. it was my view YEARS ago.. it is still my views now.. and next time.. in the future.. it will still be the same. :) hee.. and yah.. after taking quite afew pics.. it was all so fun... full of laughter.. but tiredz le oso.. hee.. so we went back home.. hmm.. irys was sent back home by ald.. and mi.... went back to MY home with baby shirshir.. hahhaa... :Pp hee.. hop hop.. o ya..we bought forest gump to watch.. havent finished watching tho.. hee.. o ya.. there is a notti photo taking session.. pics were to be kept private.. :Pp and then we bathed and dear did a surprise for mi.. i surfed the net while dear made the light sticks behind mi.. i dint see anything.. haha.. serious.. and when she was done.. she turned off the light.. and turned mi ard.. when i saw the "I LUV DEAR" writing on the bed.. tears rolled down.. so romantic.. and lovely.. hugged her.. heh.. period..
we watched abit of forest gump.. but was too tiredx.. so we went to slp.. hee.. woke up early in the morning.. and er.. okie.. ----------skip--------------
---------- then we watched forest gump somemore while we ordered madonald to eat.. hee.. hmmiez.. then i went to see doc.. hmm.. it was rather cheap.. and thank God.. there's another gift.. a mc of two days. haha.. such a blessing.. thank God.. i dint ask for it.. but it was given.. so nice.. seriously.. i tot i wont have any.. cos it was fungal infection of the groin area.. no.. it wasn't like wat u pple tink.. tink straighter.. i ran EOC then after that time.. sweat alot.. and the dojo lessons.. i got fungal infection le..
haiz.. nvmz.. this time got cream.. so good la.. :)
hmmiez.. yah.. then after tat.. dear smiled so blissfully.. like a kiddie gal given ice cream.. hehe..
we then went for some shopping for quilts.. but dint get cos i scared mummy will scold instead of appreciating.. dad.. no need to say.. sure scold.. hmm.. instead.. mi got membership for World of Sports.. hee.. cos dear wanna buy slippers.. bought it for her.. got abt 25 % discount.. it was great man.. hehe.. got 100+$ worth of stuffs oso.. including a backpack and a basketball and 3 pairs of socks.. and a goggle~ hee.. hophophop..
okie.. gotta cut shorter abit.. tiredz.. :Pp
after tat.. went home for dindin.. dear decided to go home too.. and not stay for dindin.. but when we alighted from the cabbie.. dear received a call from her sis.. that her cousins ard.. so dun go home so early.. haha.. her mum hiding oso:P hee.. funny.. and abit sad la.. but anyway.. she stayed for dindin lor.. yup.. mummy was all smile and daddy too :)
hmmz.. o ya.. to add on.. before i go see doc in the afternoon.. mi and dear went to see mummy first.. to get money.. and ask where to see doc.. cos its sunday.. yeah.. and mum's colleague started looking at dear with analyzing sights.. haha.. they say wah.. ah suan ar.. ho mia liao.. wu ji lei sim bu lua sui eh~ haha.. means so good.. got a daughter in law so beautiful.. mi and dear all smile oso... esp. dear.. her eyes betrayed her :Pp hehehe...
yep.. mum too~ and one of the auntie oso say.. shuai ge and mei nv.. tian shang yi dui.. long feng pei la:) :p heavenly couple.. juz like e dragon and phoenix.. :Pp
hee..
yep..
ok let mi pick up from where i left..
hmm.. yup.. after dindin.. mimi sent dear home.. then went to dear's home at clementi to get shoes.. and give present to gwengwen.. then came home.. haha.. then update blog til now.. haha.. zzz.. tiredz... okiez.. tats all for now.. will try to update some pics..:P hee.. nitez all~~~ dear.. i love u... :)

LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE
Name: The Hulk, Hulky, hunk, Xiao Chong, Hunhun, Dar, Darling, Dear, deardear, dearie, Sports IC, Iron Man, Inhuman, Monster.. hahaha.. ok ok la.. My Name is..
Koh Kok Keng, KK, KKK, Triple K, K-cube, San K, Xu Guo Qing, Qing, Guo Qing or GQ... :)
Birth date: 9th Aug 84
Birth place: The little heavenly magical/miraculous black hole located somewhere at the end of my mum's torso... where the leg starts forming :P hmm.. come to tink of it.. its actually my dad's prostrate la. :pppp
Current Location: Cloud 9
Color: Black or Grey or White or Red or Orange or Blue. Silver is cool too.
Hair Color: Jet-Black
Righty or Lefty: The opposite of Left
Zodiac: LeO or Hammie

LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE
Your heritage: Hmm.. dint bother.. but i'm chinese now la. how i noe wat kinda person is my GREAT^1000's grandpa?!:P
Shoes you wore today: Teva Sandles
Your weakness: Soft-Hearted/too garang
Your fears: Loneliness and living without my dear
Your perfect pizza: Lots of cheese and i mean LOTS of cheese. and pineapple.. and chicken ham.. hee..

LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY,
TOMORROW
Your most overused phrase on MSN: WATSUP~~~
Your first thought waking up: Wat should i msg my dear when she's sleeping so she can wake up reading my msg?:Pp
Your best physical feature: My Tongue :p.. hee.. kies la.. i tink its my heart la.. love my cardio.
Your bedtime: anytime from 0000~2359.. I LOVE SLEEPING.
Your most missed memory: Secondary School

LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK
Pepsi or Coke: Strawberry milk shake.
McDonald's or Burger King: It just taste better~.. or for now.. its..
Have it your way.. heh..
Single or group dates: Depends on what i wanna do with who.
Adidas or Nike: Both rocks.
Lipton Tea or Nestea: Ice Lemon Tea
Chocolate or vanilla: Strawberry
Cappuccino or coffee: None. Coffee makes your sperm taste bitter.

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
Smoke: NO! I'm a Sportsman and I hate that smell.
Take showers: Countless times a day.
Have a crush(es): Long time ago la. Attached now.
Think you've been in love: Now lor.
Like(d) high school: Of course.. pple spoonfeed.. onli got exams to worry.. who dun like is bai chi lor.
Want to get married: Fei Hua~
Get motion sickness: eh.. no. But my dear got.:P
Get along with your parents: Alrite la.
Like thunderstorms: LOVE THEM.. CAN SKIP PT most of the time:P hahaha.. and can sleep very well.

LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH
Drank alcohol: Yes
Gone to the mall: Yes
Been on stage: Yes
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: No
Eaten sushi: Yes.. 60 cents one :P
Gone skating: No.. dunno how..
Gone skinny dipping: Heh.. simi lan sai?
Dyed your hair: No.. cant la.. wanna go DB ar..
Stolen anything: Ya.. my dear's hearts.

LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER
Played a game that required removal of clothing: Yeah.. hee. but its a notti version:Pp
Got beaten up: No one ever tried.. am i that fierce looking? sigh..
oh yah~ got.. my dear lor.. always spank mi.. sobx..
Changed who you were to fit in: Yeah.. always.. its good to be adaptable:)

LAYER EIGHT: GETTING OLDER
Age you hoping to get married: 25-26 or 27 latest ba..
Children: 2 or none. Twins or one gal one boy lor. maybe will try for a
boy for mum and dad's sake la.

Describe your dream wedding: Wah.. suan le ba.. haiz.. let mi see..
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
An ok sized hotel ball room.. all my and her bestest buddies are there.. and my parents and her parents.. and our relatives.. great food.. great atmosphere..
LOTS of kisses.. deep passionate ones..
Lots of hong bao:P haha.. ok la.. nice cool and sexy bearings.. white or black oso can :P hmm.. then... aiya.. dunno la.. hahhaa.. see wat my wife wan la.. dun like to plan this kinda thing.. later she complain this complain tat.. let her handle la.. then let her ask mi qn. hahaha :Pp prefer to be the complanant :P
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
How do you want to die: Tie mi to the bed.. let mi die with the most
intensive orgasm of my life.. let mi be killed by my dear.. a stab thru
my heart and grab it out.. or poison mi ba. :Ppp
hmm.. slowly cut mi into pieces oso can.. juz leave my dick and balls alone J
What country would you most like to visit: Europe?.. Vienna.. Paris.. UK.. and America and Taiwan.. and Japan.. australia.. and new zealand.

LAYER NINE: IN A PARTNER
Best eye color?: Sharingan. Green or the eyes i have now.. yellowish
brown.. nice. when reflecting light. haha.. exactly wat my dear has. Purple~~~~
Best hair?: Long Hair... little strands of gold or dark red or dark purple.
Height: 150~160

LAYER TEN: IN THE NUMBERS
Number of piercings: 0
Number of tattoos: 0..hmm.. check my heart out.. tink there's something like two little hearts and "qing" and "shir" carved on it.
Number of times my name has appeared in the
Newspaper: Many times.. but the person isn't mi. guoqing.. quite a few professors have.:P
Number of scars on my body: haha.. never count before.. quite alot.
Number of things in my past that I regret: Wah lan eh.. ALOT LA..but to look forward and plan for the future is wat i should do.. ooo~~ life goes on.. haha.. muz be optimistic la.. juz dun add on to the regrets tat i have.. and try and cover up the regrets by making things better whenever and wherever possible la.

heh.. juz finished 10 km run in the morning..
not really tiredz ler.. sianz.. dun like this nv give in my best kinda feeling.. but its all cos of the stupid blisters... sigh.. tmac ar tmac.. hai si wo le.. i'm behind 6 pple~~~ fuck sia.. ranked number 7.. hmm.. nice number la. hahhaa.. but first time run so lousily lor.. anywayz.. excuses will be.. mi onli slept
hmmiez.. now dunno wat to do siaz.. nothing to do.. cant ask the others out.. they're definitely sleeping now..
dun wanna sleep lor.. mm sa mm xi lor.. later slp liao 3 o clock wake up.. like not noon but near evening like that.. damn sianz..
booking in at 2359.. so alrite la.. haha..
and got a one day off from dom.. do u Dom?:P hahhaa..
storing it til chinese new year.. cool eh?:P
haha.. gotta save money these two months le.. cos ar.. need to buy nicer clothings.. wanna have nicer body by then oso.. hahaha..
hmmiez.. wat to do ler.. wanna study pppo.. got exam coming soon.. should be after christmas.. but ar.. sianz lor.. nv bring file back..
dun feel like packing room oso.. haiz.. wish dear's here...*pause and think of dear...*...
haha.. wonder if she's having fun now..

okie la.. suddenly thought of this.. saw KS yesterday lor.. when sending dear..
KS looks so much better than in photo.. he looks like a triceratop dino in the photo.. hahaha.. so bad.. notti :pp
and my dear's the pussy lao shi.. mi is pussy lao shi de nan peng you.. meooow... :Pp
hehehe..

hmmiez...
later go shopshop for fun.. nothing to do.. can feng diao.. haha..
tata~~ tats all for now...

// posted by Ray @ 1:17 PM

heh.. went for family day.. hengz.. was nearly late.. cos too tiredz and can't slp last nite.. almost planned another surprise visit to dear.. but how.. how to appear at her doorstep when i aint a resident there.. sigh.. stupid security guard. haha..anywayz.. family day was pretty borig.. yeah la.. got the carnival feeling.. but the crowd seems too small la.. hmmiez.. no chiobus oso.. hahaha.. but got to interact with our sir in a more frenly way la.. its really so SO SO much lesser regimental compared to the army lor.. army.. a joke? heh.. nah.. i'm glad to have it as a part of my life.. even tho it was a short 3 months.. i'm proud abt myself tat i graduated from pegasus company.. simply fucked up. hahaha.. yeaha.. learnt alot.. experienced shit.. and helped mi matured alot beside dear's doing that made up the worst part of my life at that time.. hahaha.. notti dear.. nvmz..i'm glad.. that i'm a better man now.. heh.. so.. yep.. after family day.. hengz it ended at 12.. so we cleared up the mess and i tot i was able to go over to find shir deardear at changi.. but guess wat.. i almost wasn't able to find her due to strong objection by her mummy.. well.. actually not strong la.. but i insisted and i'm GLAD that her mum wanted to talk to mi.. and i was able to convince her that i really wanna talk with dear before she go.. and thus i guess she agreed la.. hahaa..yeah.. but then ar.. dear say will be late.. so i went to suntec to eat lunchie with my PA fwenz first la.. ate chicken whopper.. oh no.. was supposed to jian fei o.. threw away half the bun of the burger in the end.. hahaha..:Pp well.. after tat.. i took a cab down to changi to find dear.. the uncle drove at 140km per hour at a straight road there.. fuck.. i was like.. alittle frightened? hahaha.. it was really damn fast lor... and cars are like flying past beside the cab i'm in... :Pp but i'm fine la.. still alive..:Pp hmmiez.. the uncle dun seem frenly oso.. cos i aint sure abt dear at which terminal.. so i need to check.. and the uncle asked.. so i say wait ar.. and he's like damn pissed off and grumbled alittle.. i almost wanted to say something like how the fuck i will noe.. i already said i'm going there to fucking find someone and i'm not boarding a fucking plane u idiot? but no.. i maintained my coolness la. hahahaa..yepz.. dearie called mi and said she'll be late shortly after i board the cab.. wanted mi to change the location to a nearby mrt station and take mrt down.. damn.. hengz i insisted.. if not i would have quarrelled with that uncle and be late.. u noe how far issit from suntec to changi? and u noe dear reached changi onli 15 mins after i reached with that flying cab~ siaozer.. but dearie apologized.. which i tink.. hmm.. it was ok de la.. nvmz de okie.. haha.. my little spoilt princess sweetheart... treat her too good le so she's like that ma. hahahha.. my fault okie?:Pp muackz~err.. then ar.. anywayz.. met up with her.. and of course.. had lotsa chats and kisses and hugging before she go.. actually.. not alot lor.. hahaha.. lamed with her bro and sis.. and her auntie is like so FREAKING DAMN FUNNY LOR.. super lamer.. MORE MORE LAME than mi i tink:Pp hahaha.. nah.. i tink on par la.. juz tat i haven't noe them well enuff.. else i'll be able to lame them down:Pp hahaha... muz go learn more from lei meng zi.. :Pphaha.. hmmiez.. anywayz.. yep.. tink it was a really blissful feeling la.. to interact with her and her family members(to be).. like that oso will get closer and hab more topics to talk abt.. really serious abt this relationship.. hope we can grow together and understand more of each other.. and thus make this relationship long lasting... yep yep... something to be happy abt will be.. i tink they are more towards lamer side le.. so i can lame them.. if not ar.. last time i say lame jokes.. totally no response one lor.. wah lan eh.. hahaha.. :Pp hengz hengz ar... everything happened for a reason.. tink the broke up is good too.. cos if not for that.. we wont be able to be as sure how we are now.. that we're the ones that we both truly wanna seek in life.. eh, dio bo?:) then the uncle winston oso lamer yi ge.. so teach her mama and her more lame jokes.. indirectly.. they can understand more of wat i'm trying to lame la.. hahaha...so happy la.. hope dearie will be fine.. and God'll bless them with journey mercy and bliss and safety and joy and laughter and take away they troubles and woes and anythign that's not good from them... amen :)hmmiez.. gotta go soon.. going to meet up with yk.. to have a good catch up la.. :)
i'll end this blog with....
sweetheart.. crimson candy..i really really..really....love your kisses.... :)
and i miss u~~~~

There was nothing to say
The day she left
Just filled a suitcase full of regrets
I held a taxi in the rain
Looking for someplace to ease the pain

Then like an answered prayer
I turned around and found you there

You really know where to start
Fixing my broken heart
You really know what to do
Your emotional tools can cure any fool
Whose dreams have fallen apart
Fixing a broken heart

Oh yeah
Now I don't understand what I'm going through
There must be a plan that lead me to you
Because the hurt just disappears
In every moment that you are near

Yeah

Just like an answered prayer
You made the loneliness easy to bear

You really know where to start
Fixing my broken heart
You really know what to do
Your emotional tools can cure any fool
Whose dreams have fallen apart
Fixing a broken heart

Soon the rain will stop falling baby
And I'll forget the past
Cause here we are at last

You really know where to start
Fixing a broken heart
You really know what to do
Your emotional tools can cure any fool
Whose dreams have fallen apart
Fixing a broken heart

Fixing a broken heart...

hee.. this song is by azn dreamers.. really nice o.. dedicated to dearie.. isn't it so true and applicable to u? :)

heh.. seems quite long since i updated blog yea? busy with xxc.. juz got back with her.. muz shower all the care and concerns i wan since so so long ago but dint have a chance to... really love her to the very bits of her heart...
hmmiez.. let mi talk abt life ba..yeah.. life's been great.. beside the truthful and really gorgeous addition of miss xxc.. i have another bunch of die hard buddies.. Kim... no.. that is one person onli.. haha.. and brotherly eugene sng.. and jian hao.. deldel.. oopz.. i mean delwin and last but not least.. weiyuan and desmond.. haha.. they are really cool bunch of helpful and friendly pple.. superbly brotherly feel when i'm with them.. can crap abt anything.. from the sky to the earth.. from the earth to the oceans.. and of course.. the oceans.. back to the sky.. etc etc.. :ppyep.. life's been very very happy.. cept today.. cos ar.. mi and dear got simultaneous mood swings.. she got liao then my turn.. ok.. actually thats the onli part that's bad..hee.. guess wat.. dream came true.. dear came to mi home and woke mi up.. haha.. felt someone tickling mi... then i juz move away.. then tat someone kept tickling.. and tickling.. i thought.. *DAMN ITS AN INSECT~ FREAK~*.. then i turned over with a sharp movement.. and stared.. and guess who i saw.. its xxc.. hehee.. insect? not really.. keke.. really pleasant surprise.. but next thing i noe.. damn.. the headache nv went away... slept at 8am.. cos of the stupid printer combo with the laptop of deardear to give mi stupid spooler service problem.. and installation's so slow.. blablabla.. plus 2 hrs + of typing and design of the letter ... sorry dear.. should have insisted on borrowing ur laptop last week.. then wont be so rush le.. huggiez.. anywayz.. still hope u like the content...and dearie.. thx for the mcmuffin.. it tasted really great!~! hee.. from dear.. plus.. its my fav. food o.. kekeke.. really thx so much for making such a pleasant surprise for mi.. love u so so much~~~ thx o.. really appreciate...
hmmiez.. yeppiez.. the swensen lunch was cancelled.. cos of dear's tiredness.. but its ok.. stayed home to eat pizza and drumlets and garlic bread.. and watch basketball show~~ woohoo.. rocks~:Pp haha.. anywayz.. dear was fine le..yeah.. but after that.. when i abt to send dear home.. she ask mi to rap for her.. but after i rapped.. she say i sound like xiang sheng.. and then i got the mood swing back.. damn it.. dunno why oso.. fuck la.. nvmz.. i tink i controlled it better by abit.. haha.. okiez.. yep.. then i sent her home.. sorry dear.. i dint meant to keep it fro u again.. but i juz hope u can reach home with mi by ur side.. dun wan u to force or insist mi to not send u home... okie? hope u udnerstand.. hee.. after tat.. the headache hops back again.. its DAMN FUCKING PAINFUL i have to take a cab home again~... sigh..
hmmiez.. after that.. i decided to report sick.. haiz.. bad idea.. feels like every book in i am reporting sick.. but i tikn its ok la.. cos its really sick.. its not like i am chow kenging or wat.. stupid pegasus la.. train mi til like siaozer.. juz wanna chiong til i really can't make it nia.. its good la.. but i worry that it may make mi behave like a mad man or workaholic oso.. hope ot strike a balance of both chionging spirit and knowledge of myself... yepyep.. tats rite qing.. :Ppp
heh.. dearie... last but not least.. its really happy and touching to read ur blog abt our past lor.. its really really sweet... thx for putting in the effort to type them out.. i really enjoyed reading it...well.. darling.. haha.. i am a shy guy la.. aint really an extrovert afterall.. no matter how i change.. there're some things i can't change.. yup?thx for accepting mi as who i am now.. :)
oopz.. forgot to update.. hope to meet up with fu again.. really happy to meet up with this bro.. i hope this guy will be my best man if i marry one day :) and yeah.. thx fu for lending mi the pants. haha.. :Pp
hmmiez.. hope tat my camp mates will not make fun of mi.. saying i chow keng or wat.. haiz.. i am getting abit sick of being teased here and there.. such as i am trying to cut down my weight and things like that.... afterall i have a limit.. dear Lord.. please.. come into my life and help mi.. guide mi.. protect mi.. please bless mi lor.. amen...please...
yuppoze... thats all for now.. tiredz.. go eat medi and zzz abit.. tata...
xiao xiao chong.. i miss u...

// posted by Ray @ 8:16 PM

hee..
let mi start this journal with a very old fashion way..
it is a very very happy day..
YEP~ COS ITS THE FIRST WHOLE DAY I SPENT WITH DEAR.. AFTER TWO WEEKS OF TORTURE~~~
haha...
yep.. friday hor.. dear came over for dindin onli.. then i gotta go le.. haha.. hophop..
and here it goes.. :)
dearie came to mi home in the morning o.. hophop..
dint wake up yet.. cos got headache when i wake.. then i scared wake liao will hav fever.. haha.. wat kinda reason is that..
well.. actually.. yeah.. tat was half true.. haha.. silly rite.. love struck.. wat to do.. :Pp
yeah.. she came over.. hmmiez.. hehe.. then woke mi up.. but mimi dint wear anything cept my undie leh.. haha.. shuts.. was paiseh laz.. *blush*.. anywayz.. she dint see anything.. er.. yah.. cos she juz sat beside and caressed mi.. *ohh.. soo xinful.. so nice.. lovely..*.. slept abit more.. cos headache not gone..
then -uh hem~!! uh hem!..
err..:pp
yah.. then er.
went to her clementi home.. to.. change.. err.. nvmz... this part oso censored..
then we went to suntec o.. walk walk walk.. see things buy things.. actually.. dint bought anything.. haha.. can't find wat we wan.. o ya.. got ar.. dear got a skirt for jacq.. :)
yeha.. can't find my shirt.. so i onli get my gnc's hydroxycut.. exp.:(.. hengz got her uncle's discount card.. nvmz.. will make full use of it.. hee..
keke.. actually.. not the shopping that matters.. but the chat all along.. really really love chatting with dear.. and we exchanged thoughts.. views.. udnerstood each other more lo.. hee.. dear's feeling the same oso.. this time.. when we got together.. it aint like the first time.. the fresh and exciting but uncertain kinda feeling.. now.. its like more stable.. and we noe we wanna cherish each other more.. and yeah.. more imptly.. i feel that i've matured alot too.. lotsa things to update.. abt mi.. but not now.. tiredz le.. haha..
i relaly love dear.. wanna start plannign abt our future le.. i hope she'll nv leave mi.. i'll fight hard for her.. fight til my very last breathe de.. i'll be her shield from hurt and harm.. and i'll be the sun of love that'll forever shine on her to brighten her dark and even already bright days... i'll be the pillar that nv fall.. for her to lean on.. so she can place a thousand heart in security.. tat i'm hers.. and will always be.. and that i love her.. and i'll always do.. cherish her.. cos she's second to nothing.. no one.. in my life.. :)
okie..
yeah.. after dindin at cafe cartel.. went to bugis village walked abit.. to look for canvas belt.. but can't find oso.. haha..
nvmz.. enjoyed spending time with dear so much.. yeah.. lotsa joy and laughter.. lotsa hugx and kisses.. most importantly.. so much love in the air surrounding us:) thank God.. and thx dear.. for all these.. for being a blessed gift in my life.. :)
hmmiez.. after that.. sent dear to her doorsteps like i always do.. hugged and bid goodbye.. dear.. hope u're feeling less sick already.. haiz.. poor gal.. period so torturing.. patpatz..
yeah.. then.. took cab home.. cos i got headache from the not-enuff rest.. hee.. guess wat.. we msg each other together.. AGAIN!~~ haha.. always de.. muackz dear..
yeah.. more significantly.. is.. i start missing her once i left the condo.. haha..
so cool.. so L.S.. Love Struck.. not Lao Sai.. hahaha..:Pp
yeppiez...
thats all for tonite.. tata~~

o yea.. a little bit on the bookout nite..
went to watch SAW.. wa.. power.. haha.. with kim and eugene and delwin and jianhao and jake and ah pek and johnathan-the joker :P hahaha.. damn fun la.. then go sing K.. hee.. happy.. lotsa happy hours.. hope to hav more... tata~~~
keke... will nv forget de~~
WEST SIDE~~~:pP

Quote: "Guys are so troublesome.... --- Thats why I like gals.. :)"
Quote 2: "Be a man of value.. rather than a man of success.."

hee..
spent the day wisely..
dearie.. miss u o..
in the morning.. woke at 9.. had an online meeting..
meeting til 11.. nothing came out. haha.. not fruitful.. for the debate de lor.. cos no one noe anything abt politics..:Pp
hahaha.. and we're police man~:P
anywayz.. after that.. met fu and james/tat yong at 11.30.. for lunch... ate til very full o.. crapped alot.. haha.. damn happy lor.. funny..
dear~~ lets go watch the movie "Taxi":P its damn funny.. keke..
and ar.. dear.. one qn.. why i seldom see dear laugh at cinema de? even when its funny scenes.. haha.. dear wanna bao hu xing xiang?:P
hehe... anywayz.. fu went early cos of performance... then mi and tty went ard looking.. then came into sports conenction.. and thus decided to go to queensway shopping ctr..
so shared a cab down.. and walked.. i was looking for the t shirt eugene was wearing.. its like my black long sleeves.. except its a v-neck cum short-sleeves cum abit-tight-fit version.. hehe..
dint find it.. but nvmz.. maybe vip may hav? its rather plain.. can get then go get black de.. eugene got it from oakley.. but bugis oakley no hab.. haiz.. too bad la..
anywayz.. happy oso.. cos i found a white windbreaker.. i love it manz~~ haha.. its from kappa.. not totally white.. but its freaking nice~~:Pp
hahhaa..hophophop..
after that.. went ard looking for nothing.. and went home.. then went to a half medium with mummy.. asked abt the ba gua coin the uncle gave mi yesterday.. i was conned.. haha.. it was a bluff.. but anyway.. my mum let him see fortune.. he see fortune or give advice for better life..in future.. with poker cards.. he say our family will be pretty good.. so good la.. wanna let him see mine too.. i'm interested.. haha find it interesting.. but i dun believe fully.. haha.. anywayz.. i got two cards at first with same color.. two black.. then he say the deity dun wanna advice mi.. haha.. then too bad la.. but i got 1 and 7.. then he say.. juz ask mi not to be busybody.. cos if i busybody ar.. may get into law suit or court case.. or basically troubles la.. so yah.. abit like the same as the uncle yesterday.. aiya.. nvmz.. haha.. juz try and mind my own business oso good la.. too helpful.. see la.. too kind hearted.. kenna conned le.. haha..
after that.. went to temple at balestier with mummy.. to bai bai la..
good trip.. cos i found another aspect to communicate with mummy..
then went home to hav dindin with daddy mummy and bro.. happy happy.. nice chats :) explained to them why i am still THINKING AND CONSIDERING and not confirmed abt signing on.. managed to get them to understand.. :)
but dear.. stil lwanna discuss lots with u..
dearie..
miss u like crazy.. miss u lots..
i miss ur voice.. miss ur everything..
Everything i do.. i tink of u.. everywhere i go.. i tink of u too..
huggiez.. dear.. are u on ur way back le? hee..
i'm booking in le..
welcome back dearie.. to singapore.. and into my arms.. :)
i love u...
hope u'll be happy to read this.. hee..
my love.. take care when i'm not ard k? wait for ya call o.. can't wait to see u on the next book out.. hee...
tata~~
okiez.. gotta change..
book in book in book in nite~~~~
tata~~~

(Everything I Do) I Do It For You Lyrics
Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

Look into your heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all - I would sacrifice

Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you
There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way

Oh - you can't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it - there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - ya I'd die for you
Ya know it's true

Everything I do - I do it for you